Monday, January 24, 2011

And the sleep deprivation continues....

Ack, I'm tired.  I'm not sure if it's the lack of light, because I stopped taking my Rhodiola, or because I can't sleep because I have to play musical beds all night.

I start out by needing to sit with the oldest, Kenzie until she falls asleep.  She has developed a fear of her bedroom over the last year  and refuses to sleep alone. I've tried letting her cry it out at age 6 but she seems so genuinely fearful that I'm sitting with her and hoping this too will pass.

So anyway, after she falls asleep around 8 or 830 I continue with my night until 11 or so when I go to bed.  I am usually woken by Kenzie between 130-230 am when she wakes up and finds herself alone, gets scared and calls for me.  I go into her bed for a while until Zac wakes up somewhere between 3 and 4.  He too refuses to sleep alone, stating he is scared of his bed.  I crawl into bed with him until his brother wakes between 5 and 530 wanting to get up for the day.  After some high stakes negotiations, Marcus is settled back into his bed and I try to go back to my own.  Sometimes I make it and sometimes Kenzie wakes AGAIN and I have to go back in with her.    This happens EVERY NIGHT.

Luckily I have learned to survive on very little sleep during basic training, back when the twins were infants and woke every two hours until they were 14 months old.  I would like to have hope that this will pass but considering Mackenzie is sleeping worse now than than any other time in her life, I'm not optimistic.

I would usually try to insert something funny here, but my funny is tired today too, so just carry on, go about your business... nothing to see here....


  1. Maybe you should all just get a giant kingsize bed and start off in it altogether. Then you could at least sleep in one spot? S. also hates her bed lately and has been waking up a bit more than usual. Maybe with her and the twins it is a stage? Fingers crossed!!!

  2. I'm going to comment on my own post. Don't worry, I haven't killed myself, I'm working on something hopefully much funnier and less depressing...stay tuned...

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